Hurts like hell to publish my inner-most thoughts and feelings

Any sensible writer or blogger knows the act of writing inner-most thoughts and feelings is analogous to swallowing a tortilla chip with a sore throat—painful!  But it’s the act of publishing our writing that really wratchets up the risk we take as writers.

risk by avifain is licensed under Creative Commons | Attribution-NonCommercial-ShareAlike 2.0 Generic (CC BY-NC-SA 2.0)
risk by avifain is licensed under Creative Commons | Attribution-NonCommercial-ShareAlike 2.0 Generic (CC BY-NC-SA 2.0)

To write well requires an immense leap of faith.  My current publishing struggle can be summarized in the form of the question, How or when is someone going to use my words against me in the future?

I have considered myself a serious writer for about ten years now but the quality of my writing didn’t begin to shine (to me) until I started allowing my inner-most thoughts and feelings to make an appearance on both my fiction and non-fiction pages.

I do recognize I have trust issues.  They go back to the elementary school playground where no words uttered in confidence were ever honored as sacred.  Even today I struggle to share thoughts and feelings verbally in one-on-one and small group settings with my friends and family. Frankly, it’s probably why I have few friends to begin with.

As I continue to follow some of my favorite bloggers and non-fiction writers I notice a common trait is the risk they take by publishing their thoughts and feelings.  Yes, it’s risky.  Publishing content on the Internet leaves behind a permanancy that can largely never be erased. How will this impact a relationship with a future spouse, friend, colleague, or employer?

I suppose on one hand I can play it safe.  I can filter and water down thoughts and emotions.  Alternatively, I can plant a stake in the ground and begin today to take risks that allow my unique personality come through in my writing.

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